This album was so good it triggered me like a sleeper cell into being Not Normal about Ariana Grande again at my grown age. As you can see I've adored every album she's made but she somehow outdid herself. She's never sounded better. She's grown so much into herself as an artist and is proving her staying power. I love her so much.
Knowing that Ariana has been in full Glinda mode for the last couple years I wondered if that was going to influence the sound of the album, since it seemed she really immersed herself in the role. I'm pleased to report she kept these worlds separate and this album is all Ari.
This is a highly controversial time for Ariana (get behind me girl!!!!) since her divorce from Dalton Gomez was made super public in addition to her new relationship with Wicked co-star Ethan Slater who recently welcomed a child with his wife from whom he divorved seemingly around the same time as Ari and Dalton. Things frankly look really messy and there is a popular perception of Ariana as a homewrecker. I don't claim to know the truth and I know Ariana is only human. I do know that people in her life have defended her publicly and have insinuated that people have the story wrong but it isn't theirs to tell. My personal fondness for Ariana inclines me to give her the benefit of the doubt, though truthfully it's really none of my business at all. What is my business is how fucking good this album is.
eternal sunshine is Ariana's most conceptual record, combining uber-confessional lyrics specific to her recent divorce and new relationship along with other stories illustrating the concept from the movie Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (one of Ariana's favorite movies. since childhood she has been Jim Carrey's #1 fan) where people can have memories of entire relationships erased rather than deal with the pain of the relationship's failure. Ariana described it as "saying everything and nothing at the same time." She explained that in addition to pulling from her own circumstances she is pulling from stories she heard from others and tying them into universal love and loss themes through the lens of the eternal sunshine universe.
Feels spiritually connected to thank u, next for me since it is also the breakup follow-up album after the falling-in-love arc of Positions.
eternal sunshine is incredibly tight and concise with only like a 30 something minute runtime. There is no fluff or filler on this album. The storytelling is so vibrant and layered, better than it's ever been. The music videos for this era so far have already been excellent and iconic by my standards. Feels so much like she is coming home to herself.
The album is best first listened through in its entirety as the concept really comes together.
intro (end of the world)
She loves to have a little reggae moment! Very pretty and confessional and begins with some questions that sets the tone for the rest of the album.
If the sun refused to shine tell me would I still be your lover, would you want me there? If the moon went dark tonight, and if it all ended tomorrow, would I be the one on your mind your mind your mind. And if it all ended tomorrow, would you be the one on mine?
Harkens back to Best Mistake on My Everything, where she sings
Cause if the water dries up, and the moon stops shining, stars fall, and the world goes blind, boy, you know I'll be saving my love for you
bye
Great disco track about the moment she decided it's time to say goodbye. This is great tight pop.
This aint the first time I've been hostage to these tears. I can't believe I'm finally living through my fears.
Ariana has alluded multiple times to her fear of divorce, stemming from seeing her parents divorce when she was young. See the song thank u, next (god forbid somethin happens) or obvious from Positions (i'm praying we don't fuck this up). She's now living it, knowing in her heart it was the right thing to do and realizing she's strong enough to handle it. Super empowering. It's a beautiful moment because she was scared to end up like her mother, Joan who she adores and is super close with, only to go through the same thing and realize how strong and resilient they both are, bringing them even closer together and giving Ariana even more admiration for her.
So I grab my stuff, Courtney just pulled up in the driveway, it's tiiiime
What do yall know about Courney Chipolone?? Ariana's cousin and one of her lifelong best friends. She was in the thank u, next video as one of the plastics.
Additionally, even thought the song is about deciding it's over, it's not at all mean-spirited. As she put it in her Apple Music interview, it's bye, not fuck you.
don't wanna break up again
Whew, this is a rough one I think a lot of us can relate to. Knowing things aren't right and probably won't be again, not wanting to break up but knowing you have to.
We sort of get into the theme of holding multiple contradictory truths at once and the kinds of phases you go through when ending it with someone. In bye, she sings:
At least I know how hard we tried both you and me, didn't we? Didn't we?
But in this song, she sings:
I made it so easy, spent so much on therapy, blamed my own codependency, but you didn't even try. When you finally did it was at the wrong time. No, I won't abandon me again for you and I.
This lyric always makes me cry:
Hope you won't, won't regret me, hope you'll still think fondly of our little life
Saturn Returns Interlude
Another heavy theme of this album and Ariana's life these last couple years is her hitting her Saturn Return, which happens usually around age 29. It marks a period of transformation and reckoning with your true desires, as Diana Garland explains in this spoken excerpt from her video titled “Saturn Return – Why 29 Years Old Is An Important Age”.
I'm approaching my own saturn return and i'm terrified!
eternal sunshine
This may be Ariana's best song yet. It's for sure my new favorite. Sonically so haunting. Lyrically explores those parallel timelines and the way she and her partner have each moved on and the desire to erase the memories to maintain sanity rather than carrying them with her.
So I try to wipe my mind, just so I feel less insane, rather feel painless
She plays so well with levels in this album, the parts in her lower register really giving extra impact to the chorus which she takes up real high.
Being the titular track, this song really encapsulates the concept of the record in its purest form.
supernatural
Now we start to get a bit more positive and hopeful, since we're talking about a new love that feel supernatural. Such a pretty, catchy song about being ready to define the relationship without wasting any more time.
The vocals on the live version she just did are mind boggling.
true story
A response to the stories about her that paint her as the villain. Ariana's relationship to the media and the public has evolved over the years. At first she was well-liked but sometime between My Everything and Dangerous Woman she started to get the reputation of a diva. When she was at her career peak during thank u, next she was being eaten alive on twitter amidst all the other unimaginable hardship she was experiencing in her personal life. I love to see her stand up for herself.
the boy is mine
Kind of a continuation of the villain thing. She is SO funny and bold for choosing this time to interpolate this song famously about two women fighting over a man, given all the stories about her. Such a power move, I have to respect it. And the music video is so fun!
This song is such an instant classic. She says she made it trying to capture what her fans love about a leaked song of hers that's super popular on Tik Tok, called Fantasize. Fantasize is actually written for a tv show and is a parody of 90's girl groups, which is exactly what it sounds like to me. The lyrics are tongue-in-cheek and a bit on the cornier side than the work she makes for herself. For some reason people LOVEEE Fantasize and are so mad that it's not a real song that she released and are under the impression it's one of her best songs. Now, i would not go that far. As I said before, i sometimes question the taste of my fellow brothers and sisters in Grande, and Ariana feels the same way, just like, why do yall love Fantasize so much? But she made this song to have a similar vibe as Fantasize because she is a woman who knows how to please her fans. This song is miles better than Fantasize.
The remix with Brandy and Monica is sooo good and so major and according to Brandy and Monica, literally healed their relationship after their famous decades-long beef. With everyone all excited about Charli and Lorde's reconciliation on Girl, So Confusing from Brat, I'm surprised that more people weren't drawing comparisons to this and saying "let's work it out on the remix." Like they reallly worked it out on the remix!! What a moment!
yes, and?
Her first single after a long hiatus from music! I immediately loved it. Dancey and house-y and empowered. She is sooo funny. I love how it's a not to her musical theatre era (and roots) without being Glinda-fied.
we can't be friends (wait for your love)
Ohhh this song and video are sooo good. Sounds a lot like Robyn's Dancing on my Own, another song I love though I can't tell if it's a sample or just similar. The song feels both personally confessional while still somehow universal and multifaceted. Stunning chorus. Stuck in my head all the time.
i wish i hated you
Our shadow stands in a parallel plane, just two different endings: you learn to repair and I learn to keep me in one place
Ohhh this is heartbreaking. And unfortunately relatable. It's about, at the end of a relationship, realizing you can't even take comfort in hating your ex and saying "good riddance" because they actually didn't do anything to deserve that and it's somehow more painful that way, because the love and fondness for that person will always be there, just with the knowledge that you aren't right for each other. This is one she says she won't listen back to or ever perform live and I don't blame her. Very raw and vulnerable.
and no matter how I try to and no matter how I want to and no matter how guilty I still feeling saying it, I wish I hated you, I wish that weren't true, wish there was worse to you, I wish you were worse to me
imperfect for you
This is Ariana's favorite song on the album. It's pretty up there for me! It's sonically pretty different than a lot of her other stuff but seems to reflect her personal taste. It's kind of haunting and psychedelic and about acknowledging and appreciating the time they had together, the valuable lessons they learned along the way, the main one being that they were imperfect for each other and it took all they went through to find that out. It's so good. What's interesting is this one feels more accepting, like she's inclined to hang on to the memories rather than erase them, and appreciates the time they had and all she learned from it.
I'm glad we crashed and burned, I know we'll be there for each other
I got misty typing that out! Jesus!
ordinary things (feat. Nonna)
We end the album on a hopeful note, talking about how in her new relationship nothing could ever be ordinary because just being together is so special. Beautiful close to the album. Ends with a recording of Ariana's Nonna (who she is ALWAYS recording which I think is so sweet) talking about the hardships she and her late grandfather (who Ariana was also very close with) overcame and advising Ariana to follow her heart, know what is worth fighting for and know when it's time to get out. So good.
I'm not greedy. I satisfied myself that Ariana made a concise, perfect record that couldn't be improved upon and needed no addendum. I thought, what more could I ask? The fans, however, clamored ravenously for more. After trickling out an a capella edition and a slightly deluxe with remix collaborations (for which we are thankful) she finally graced us with a true deluxe edition of eternal sunshine, complete with a short film of a music video tying the entire era into a high-production value, polished package. She gives so much I love her so. We got 5 and a half brand new tracks that function like an epilogue, readdressing some of the points in the original tracks with an evolved point of view, a reminder of the passage of even more time.
intro (end of the world) (extended)
I FUCKING LOVE THIS SONG. I already enjoyed the original brief intro but the extended version takes it to a whole new level and is my preferred version of the song. One of my faves to sing and play on guitar. I experienced a giant breakup since I first started this shrine, so it's hitting even closer to home than ever.
Please pay me no mind
while I jump into your skin and change your eyes
so you see things through mine
Can't you sense me?
I've been right here all this time
Would you still be here pretending you still like me?
Pretending you don't regret not thinking before asking?
Now you're long gone in Cali
And me, I'm still unpacking why I even allowed you on the flight
I broke your heart because you broke mine
So me, I am the bad guy
Cause I'd already grieved you when you started to realize
I do need you, I did
I wish I could un-need you
So I did
twilight zone
Sweet and bouncy with a little bit of an attitude. About finally getting enough space from the relationship to wonder what in the hell you thought you were doing, and how you couldn't feel further removed from that version of yourself. In the original set of tracks, Ariana goes through a few different phases of how she feels toward her failed love, from disappointment and bitterness, to relief and acceptance, to acknowledging their effort and wishing them well. It seems that as more time has passed, she's allowing the part of her that feels she was wronged to be heard, when before it seemed she didn't feel justified (see i wish i hated you). There is also the acknowledgement that this journey through the twilight zone led to where she is now, and she wouldn't take it back. I love this song.
And it's not like I'm still not over you
It's so strange, this I never do
Not that I miss you, I don't
Sometimes I just can't believe
You happened
warm
Light and bubbly, sweet safe and comfy. The title fits the sound. Makes me think of my best friend Gracie who I adore. It's optistic about new love. That part of ari remains alive.
dandelion
This song absolutely oozes like molasses. An all-timer for Horniana and R&Biana. God this song is good. Sensual dancey hot and sticky.
I got (Got) what you need (You need)
I'm thinking you should plant this seed
I get this sounds unserious
But baby boy this is serious
past life
This instrumental is insane and she went ahead and made one of her best songs of all time. The only problem with this song is that it is absolutely impossible to sing. But it won't stop me from trying. Pre chorus goes too hard idk what to tell you.
Expands on some of the grievances alluded to in don't wanna break up again (you didn't even try, when you finally did it was at the wrong time, won't abandon me again for you and IIIiiIii), and continues the thread from twilight zone, where she doesn't seem to recognize or identify with the person she was when she was in the relationship, and acknowledges the self-abandonment required to maintain it.
Always wondered what would happen if I let you lose me
Always wondered what would happen if I let myself need more
RHYTHMS OF THE NIGHT CON SUME MY BOOOODYYYY
JUST LET THE MUSIC CONFISCAAAATE MY SOOOOouuuul
Hampstead
Ariana declared this her favorite song she's made to date. I'll say it's a damn good one. She wraps up the album by addressing the elephant in the room directly and with intense sincerity. Hampstead is where Ariana lived while filming Wicked, and where she experienced both the dissolution of her marriage and the beginning of her new relationship with Ethan Slater, spurring all sorts of rumors and narratives, none terribly flattering.
I left my heart at a pub in Hampstead
And I misplaced my mind in a good way
Threw away my reputation, but saved us more heartache
Yes, I know it seems fucked up and you're right
But quite frankly, you’re still wrong about everything
So far off, your seat's nowhere near the table
But I find something sweet in your peculiar behavior
'Cause I think to be so dumb must be nice
I do, I do, I do, I do
What makes you think you’re even invited?
The doors are closed with lights off inside and all the while
Therе's no one home, you're still outsidе
I wonder why